[The following email is fictional and does not depict any actual person or event.]
Re: What you are about to do.
I couldn’t help but see the draft of the email you wrote to that woman today. Are you really sure you want to begin an affair with her? Hasn’t the flirting already gone too far? Do you really want to do this?
Before you hit send… think of the sweet bride you married at the altar. Remember on that glorious day, you promised to love her in sickness and in health, for better and for worse, till death do you part. How it will break her heart! Sure, she’s not all that she used to be. Not as attractive, not as attentive, but neither are you, right? If there’s a coldness and distance in your relationship from the years of fighting, aren’t you at least partly responsible? It’s not really such a good excuse, is it? What’s that you always say in marriage counseling? “It takes two to tango.”
Think of your kids; do you want them to have this picture in their minds whenever they see you? Is this a good example for your son? Do you want him to think he is free to do this with his new girlfriend because “well, Dad did it?” How about your young, pure and innocent daughter, imagine how she will rebuff your fatherly affection, “Eeew”!
And what will this do to your whole family? “But it’s just one time,” you say, “not a biggie.” How many men have you counseled who said the same thing, only to become deeply entwined in an extramarital affair to the demise of their marriages and the destruction of their families? You know how powerfully addictive illicit sex is. It’s as if you are taking that family photo and you are ripping it right down the middle.
And of course there is the dear woman you are taking advantage of. She worships the ground you walk on, doesn’t she? It’s so nice to have her fawning over you. One time in bed with her would be heaven, you say. Hey, think about what you’re taking from her and the hell you are creating for her and her already struggling family. Just to meet your own desires. And if her hubby finds out, don’t you think he will go through the roof? You will certainly hear about it. And then what about her kids? They are still in grade school. What would a broken family do to them?
And you know the story with the church. These people trust you and have followed your instructions about marriage. You even performed the marriages of many of them. You are letting them down BIG TIME. There’s no way to keep it a secret especially in our social media world. You will have to stand before them some Sunday and admit what you have done. How many of your colleagues in ministry have done the same thing! Not only are they out of the church, but in most instances they are out of the ministry. So then everything you have worked for these last years – all down the drain. Just when you are really understanding their struggles and hardships. Just when you could really connect with them.
Most of all there is your relationship with the Lord. You know what its like to try to operate without his power. You’re good, but not that good. Picture him, a tear in his eye, a compassionate look on his face, whispering, “Come back to me, come back now, please”. You can run right into his arms right now and know his Psalm 52 forgiveness. It’s his love that can fill the loneliness and isolation at the heart of this temptation. Yes, he will forgive you after the fact, but it would be so much easier now, knowing his love at this very moment.
So… won’t you delete that email now? Tell her your flirting was wrong and kindly but definitely cut it off. Then begin rebuilding your marriage with your wife. Won’t you … for her sake… for your kids… the church… the Lord.
Signed: Your Conscience